Once In A Lifetime

I find that once in a lifetime opportunities tend to happen at the most unexpected moments.

I was presented today with a very big offer. I am both flattered and proud of myself that I would even be considered to be given such an opportunity; however, given the circumstances that I am going back to school, I feel as if I cannot give my full attention and energy to this opportunity.

It's both uplifting and heartbreaking. Never in a million years did I, "the girl who never talks," think would be where I am now.

It's an opportunity that just came at the wrong time.

Let Me

Let me go.
Let me grow.
Let me make mistakes.
Let me make my own decisions, even if you don't believe it is right.
Let me figure things out on my own; I'll come to you if I need help.
Let me be me.
Let me go out and meet people.
Let me go out and see the world.
Let me figure out what makes me happy.
Let me live my own life.
Be my shoulder to cry on.
Be my advisor.
Be my cheerleader.
Be my friend.

Kina

Her songs are like the voice of my soul, my thoughts, my feelings, my anxieties, and my worries. But her songs has this way of calming me, giving me hope, and making feel like I'm not alone in it all.

(She produced this new album, In The Waiting, all by herself with the help of her record label on Patreon that consisted of her supporters, like myself. We called ourselves KG Records. She shared with us and included us in producing this album. I am deeply in awe of Kina's hard work and dedication for this album, and I am proud to have been in just a tiny part of it.)

I had the opportunity to watch Kina last week on July 11, 2018, at the Teragram Ballroom in LA.

Failures

Last year, I had a bit of a fall out. I was working at this company and I got tired of it, and I wanted to move on with my career. So I found work at a different company, while working part-time at the old company. I was there for 6 months, but things took a turn. Mistakes happened, whether they were my fault or not, it was still deemed to be my fault. Anyway, I was forced to quit that job, and so I went back to the previous company I worked for and I'm still working there until now.

As I think back to that time in my life, I remember feeling how sad I was, how empty I felt, how embarrassed I felt, how anxious I felt, and how much of a failure I felt. It was one to two months of me feeling sorry for myself. I even booked a solo trip to visit my brother and a last minute trip to the Philippines. However, despite all those feelings, I don't regret it. I tried something new and unfortunately, it didn't work out. Regardless of what happened, it was an experience, lessons were learned, and I'm better now. Also, if I hadn't went back to my previous job, then I might not have made the friends I have now.

So when I saw this quote, it struck a heartstring in me because now, I believe that my failure was a blessing in disguise.

"A door closes, and another one opens." Now, I am going back to school for my Master's degree to be a Family Nurse Practitioner and I have new friends who are there to support me on this journey.

Song

Thanks to a friend, I had the opportunity to watch some amazing dancers at the first ever Arena Dance Competition in LA last weekend, June 30, 2018. This is Mike Song. He is one of my favorite dancers. I have been a fan of him since I was in high school, watching him on America's Best Dance Crew with UCI's dance team, Kaba Modern. He is one of the dancers who inspired me to learn how to pop. Going to this dance competition made me miss learning a dance choreography and dancing on stage.