Just got home from the airport. After 17 years of helping my parents raise my brother and me, I hugged, kissed, and waved goodbye to my grandparents. I will surely miss having them around. I will even miss the smallest things about them.
Just to mention a few, first of all, it will surely be a little quieter at the house. I will no longer hear their constant bickering. lol. I will miss hearing my Lolo banging pots and pans in the kitchen at 4 in the morning everyday to cook us breakfast (bacon, sinangag, longanisa, tocino, tapa...just to name a few) before he goes to work at 6 in the morning. That way, when we wake up, there will be food on the table. I will miss the loud chitchats of my Lolo and Dad every single night while they drink beer together. I will miss hearing them come home from work at 4 in the afternoon, and then turn on the TV to TFC so that they can watch their favorite teleseryes (soap operas). This is part of the reason why I don't watch a lot of TV because it's always tuned to TFC. haha. I will miss seeing my Lola in the kitchen everyday, cooking us something delicious. Even on vacation, she will be the one preparing food! :) Surely, I think many people made it clear at their retirement party that they will miss her cooking. haha. I will miss my Lola checking up on me when I'm sick, making sure that I don't have a fever. I will miss my Lola randomly giving me money on the most random days. LOL! :P Before my brother and I learned to drive, my Lolo was the one picking us up from school and driving us to all our activities: piano lessons, karate lessons, dance lessons, and religious education classes. I will miss my Lolo telling me to eat even though he just saw me eat in front of him 5 minutes ago. lol. I will miss taking up a whole row at church, now there will be 2 empty seats. haha. They watched my brother and I graduate from high school. They witnessed me being accepted to the nursing program. Just like my parents, they were also so happy that I got accepted because if things did not work out here, they were ready to take me with them to the Philippines so that I can study there. lol. I will make them proud. :)
Gosh!! I will miss the family chitchats and laughs with them. There's probably so much more I can say, but let's just say that I'm happy for them because now, they can enjoy life back in their homeland in the Philippines. Happy Retirement!! :)
Anyway, it's a reason for me to visit the Philippines more often. I know so many people are waiting for me there. hahaha! :P It's also a new year soon, which means time for new memories, new beginnings, and new challenges. 2012 and the years to come, BRING IT ON!!
It is not everyday that everybody is home at the same time, but today was one of those days. Today was a crazy family day, but mostly because today is my grandma's birthday. It is also her last birthday here with us before she goes back home to the Philippines for retirement. The day started out early at 6am when we all left the house to go to church at Mission San Juan Capistrano for their 7:30am mass. Afterwards, we had breakfast at McDonald's and did some picture taking. haha
Children's Party?
The Boys
The Gals
After breakfast, we took a stroll on Balboa Pier and enjoyed watching the surfers and the fishermen catch fish. Oh! And we did more picture taking. haha
Balboa Pier
The Boys
The Gals
Family :)
Lastly, we went to Puente Hills Mall to eat at Max's of Manila for lunch. Just to throw it out there, this was the same place I saw Marié Digby perform together with the Digbyholics back in March. I even got to see Marie's picture with the manager on their wall. hehe. Anyway, I couldn't stop thinking about them the whole time. I miss them much? :P
Anyway, after lunch we went back home, and had my grandma blow her candles and open presents. Here's a video to watch to see how much fun we had. Honestly, I almost cried watching all of this happen. I'm going to miss moments like these with my grandparents when they go back home to the Philippines. :)
Today, I decided to go to the hospital and have a quick check-up because my cough hasn't gotten any better in over a month.
Anyway, the physician assistant who did my check-up randomly asked me about what school I went to and my major. So I told her what school I am attending and that I am majoring in nursing. Right away, she praised how great my school is and how amazing the nursing program is at my school. It isn't the first time I've heard that, but hearing that from someone in the medical field made hearing it even sweeter, like I made the right choice of going to that school. hehe. Furthermore, she kept talking and saying that it's great I'm choosing to be a registered nurse. And this is how she said it:
"I am proud of you that you are choosing to be a registered nurse because it's in high demand right now. And it's great because you will always have a job, you get good salary, and most importantly, you're helping people. Sure, it's a grueling process and a grueling job, but in the end, it's worth it because you're helping people."
When she said that, I thought to myself, "Yeah...that's what I want to do...help people." :)
"Acceptance is the first step to moving on."
One of the things that bothered me for so long, especially this year, was the fact that I grew apart from my childhood best friend. It was evident that we were inseperable. We would do everything together. We would see each other whenever we can when there was no school, celebrate holidays together, laugh at the most silliest things together, have sleep overs, and etc...all the things best friends do. Then came middle school and high school when I started to feel our friendship slowly drifting away. We would never hear or see each other for long periods of time. Now, when we do see each other, it doesn't feel the same.
Anyway, this past week, I have come to accept that our friendship isn't how it used to be. Over this past weekend, after her birthday, I realized that what happened to our friendship is bittersweet because I have new best friends whom I love dearly and cannot imagine my life without. :) All I can do now is to just be thankful I got to experience having a best friend/sister.
Now, this doesn't mean that we cannot or will not be friends anymore. This just means that I will miss the times we spent together. And who knows? Maybe we will be good friends again later. But for now, all we have of our friendship are memories.
I have been very nostalgic lately, and I thought that I should share this with you all because I feel like I am going crazy. lol. I guess I just miss her though. :)
This happened just a few months ago, and I don't know why I never blogged about it. Anyway, it was a spring night on March 4, 2011. I was with my friends at a show of our favorite singer-songwriter in Puente Hills, CA. As always, she gave a great show and then she does a meet and greet session afterwards. Let's skip all the details and get down to the scene that keeps playing over and over in my head lately.
We had the chance to hangout with her for a couple of hours, just relaxing and chatting in the tiny room where they held the meet and greet, and then it was that time of the night to say our goodbyes. So there I was, quietly standing next to her, minding my own business just watching the people around me, waiting for my turn to say goodbye and wish her a safe trip to the other side of the world where all my other friends are, when unexpectedly, she gently grabbed my arm, looked at me in the eyes with a gentle smile, and quietly said, "Don't you ever change. I love you just how you are," just before we said our goodbyes. Then she was off to conquer the world with her music. ;)
I heard this at church today, "It's time for change. It's time to move forward." It definitely is time. :)
It has been so long since I have worn a skirt or a dress. lol. I have been boasting about this since this morning, but hey, I think I have every right to because this is kind of a big step for me. I am a shy girl and I am very self-conscious of how people look at me or think of me, especially as I grew up from 5th grade to middle school and high school. I was always teased behind my back. So it came to the point that the only way I felt "comfortable" around people was to hide under my clothes. For so long, I have been the kind of girl who is always wearing jeans and shirts, and too often nowadays, people think I am gay. lol! Well, I changed that today. :) I am just taking small steps in breaking that wall that I have been building for so long and stepping out of my comfort zone. :)
On top of that, I love watching fashion TV shows ("What Not to Wear" and "America's Next Top Model" particularly) and looking at fashion magazines and fashion photography. In fact, come to think of it, one of my all time favorite movies is "Devil Wears Prada." hehehe #jmiefacts. The funny thing is that I never dress up like I love fashion. lol. :]
The one thing I probably won't do is put on make-up, unless I really have to put it on for special occasions. haha! :P
Anyway, please excuse my pale legs (not that you can really see them here). lol. ktnxbai.
I took this CD to the cashier. The cashier says, "Oh! You got it! One of my friends is a HUGE fan and she keeps asking me, 'Do you guys have it?!'" I laugh as I look into my wallet digging out my money, and then I hesitate for a second wondering if I should tell her that I actually know the guy personally, that we went to the same high school, that we have a lot of the same friends, and that our families know each other. In fact, I think the whole time, I had a stupid, mischievous smile on my face. haha. But...nope...instead, I just said that we went to the same church. lol. I was really hoping that something like that wouldn't happen. haha.
Anyway, just last year, my friend and I went to his first show that he headlined at the Glass House in Pomona. I remember my friend and I talking, and we both agreed that if he releases an album, we were going to support him all the way. And here we are, one year later and he releases an album. :)
I'm really proud of this guy. I love his hard work and dedication to his career choice, and yet, at the same time he still finds time to thank his fans, serve and give back to the community, and still be there for his family and friends. I don't know how he does all of that at once. He must be superman or something. lol.
If that's not enough, he put this album together at a house without a record label. That's amazing!!
Once again, another YouTube musician proving to the world that with hard work and dedication, dreams do come true. :)
Last week was a pretty long week. The beginning of my week began with sleepless nights, studying, and midterms.
Then on a gloomy Wednesday, May 18, I got a tweet from a friend, telling me that Clara Chung was going to have a little show at UCR, which is about a 10-15 minute drive from my house. I remember this day clearly because it wasn't one of my best days for all I wanted to do was go home and catch up on sleep. The headache I also had that day made it even worse. But on top of all of that, I thought to myself, "Why not? I could use a little fun." So I went to see Clara C. perform at UCR (which was my first time to see her live), and I'm glad I did. In Clara's presence, it's hard not to smile or laugh because she's got a very bubbly personality and she shows that on stage, and in between songs, she'd interact with the audience, which makes her show very intimate and entertaining. And if her silly and bubbly presence isn't enough, her classy voice, her use of her instruments, and her band sound amazing together! If you've ever seen Imogen Heap perform, the way Clara handles her instruments is kind of like that. Sorry, it's kind of hard to explain. haha! You kind of just have to see it yourself. Anyway, let's just say that even if my head was throbbing, it was worth watching Clara and her band perform live. Also, it was worth seeing Digbyholic faces. :)
If midterms and Clara C. wasn't enough for the week, I also went out to see Kina Grannis, which was also my first time to see her live, at the Largo on Friday, May 20, with other fellow Digbyholics. If I remember correctly, I left my home at 5:30pm and filled up my gas tank, and then got some crispy chicken strips from Jack-in-the-Box to eat while I drive off to LA. haha. Thankfully, my drive to LA was not bad. My car didn't breakdown and there was no traffic until I actually got to LA. lol. So I arrive at the venue about half an hour before the show started.
Before the show started, one of the staff who worked there welcomed us all and gave us heartbreaking news. lol. We were not allowed to take videos or take pictures or even use our phones for purposes like they want to show respect to the artist and it's always been their policy. So unfortunately, I can't share exactly how much of a success and how much fun the show was with pictures or videos, which means that I couldn't share the show to my friends around the world. </3 But if we were caught with any of those, we'd be kicked out. So I'll just write this blog. haha.
Anyway, Kina's opening act was "Imaginary Friend," who's real name I forgot, sorry. lol. But anyway, he was pretty good and he was so shy, it was cute. :) After he performed, there was an intermission and Kina was up next.
When it was time for Kina, her band members walked out from behind the curtains on stage left and the audience started to cheer and others would make remarks like, "You're not Kina!" or "Where's my wife?!" haha. Then the band started playing the first song on the set list, which was, "The One You Say Goodnight To." Few minutes later, Kina and her sisters, Misa and Emi, walked out from behind the curtains on stage left with her iPhone, her set list, a wine glass (which later she explained is filled with olive oil because her doctor said that it's supposed to help her voice work better), and a mug of hot water with honey and a rasberry on the bottom that her younger sister, Emi, made for her because she was sick.
Anyway, Kina puts her things down on a stool and runs over to the mic in the middle, puts her set list on the floor, and starts singing the song, while her sisters are singing the harmonies. It was until about half way through the song, Kina told the band to stop playing and said that she felt like she was singing in the wrong key, but in reality, she was doing just fine. Poor Kina was so sick that her hearing was a bit muffled. She described it as like cotton balls and fluffy stuff are stuffed in her head, so it muffled her hearing. haha. It was even funnier though because her older sister, Misa, replied by teasing Kina saying that there's always cotton balls and fluffy stuff in her head. haha. After that, they started the song again and the show went on.
I'm not going to share every single detail about the show, but I will tell you my favorite highlights of the show.
In between her songs, Kina has to tune her guitar, and at one point, she explained that she can't multitask to talk and tune the guitar at the same time, so it was fortunate to have her sisters there to entertain the audience while she tunes her guitar. haha. So while Kina tunes her guitar, her sisters would be telling jokes or dancing. Her band also played along by jamming some tunes. At one point, the band started playing an upbeat tune and Emi started dancing, and Kina glanced over at her sister and got excited, so she started dancing too. lol. And also in between songs, when Kina would take a sip of olive oil, the audience goes, "Ewww!!" lol.
Also, Kina tells stories behind some of her songs and the story of her Grandfather's uke, that was stolen while she was on tour one time, but was replaced by a new uke with her name on it from her street teamers. :)
Other highlights, of course, would be my favorite performances, which were "Message From Your Heart" (first Kina original song I ever heard) and "Without Me," not because they're my favorite songs, but because of the way she performed them. What I loved about "Message From Your Heart" was that she stepped away from the mic and stood all the way to the front of the stage. She also asked the audience to participate and sing along with her. The fact that she stepped away from the mic and came closer to the audience made the show much more intimate and personal. It was an incredible moment and feeling. Pretty cool. Then she walked off stage, but came back for an encore of 2 songs, one of them being, "Without Me." What I liked about this performance was that she really gave this one her all, since it was her last song. She really sang this one with all that she had left of her voice. It was pure awesomeness!
So overall, the band was amazing, watching the sisterly bond on stage was entertaining, her sisters' harmonies were beautiful, and even though Kina said that her voice was not at it's very best, we couldn't even really tell because she did an incredible job. With all of that said, I give her much love and respect for her dedication to give all that she can offer for her fans. Kina is one of the greatest sweethearts on earth! :)
I kind of wish I had stuff like this to say to her though. I was so starstrucked, I didn't know what to say. lol. First time around is always like that, I guess. Oh well... :)
Then on my one and a half hour drive home, eating cold french fries from Jack-in-the-Box to help keep me awake (lol), I was thinking back to how crazy my week was, and I couldn't help but smile at all the good times. It's a great feeling. I wish every weekend could make me feel like that.
Here's a video I found on YouTube of Kina Grannis at NYC, playing "Without Me" with her band. It's just an awesome song and I want to share. lol. :)
This is how it works. I love the people in my life, and I do for my friends whatever they need me to do for them, again and again, as many times as is necessary. For example, in your case you always forgot who you are and how much you’re loved. So what I do for you as your friend is remind you who you are and tell you how much I love you. And this isn’t any kind of burden for me, because I love who you are very much. Every time I remind you, I get to remember with you, which is my pleasure.- James Lecesne
"I’m kind of a shy girl. Everyday is a new battle for me. I tell myself “I need to be less scared at the idea of showing people who I really am”. But you just don’t wake up one day and everything’s changed…" - Marie Digby (SOURCE: Digbyholics)
I CAN TOTALLY RELATE. I actually laughed when I saw this because what she said is the same thing that I told my classmates in my Psychology class in school just a week or two ago. We did a group exercise in which we had to share something about ourselves that we have accepted and want to change. Well...this was mine. Of course, it wasn't easy to share, but I did. I figured maybe people ought to know what I go through everyday. Why not?
I miss my little ball of fluff, Ava.
She was gone for a little while now. I am only sharing about it now because I don't like having the thought that she was taken away from me wrapped around in my head.
She made me laugh, she made me smile, she made me feel loved...bottom line, she made me feel happy.
Ever since they gave her away, I keep thinking about her. When she was here, she helped me to relieve my stress everyday after school. I miss cuddling with her. I miss taking naps with her. I miss playing with her. Most of all, I miss playing the guitar for her. :) That was the one special thing we always did together, play the guitar.
When she was here with me, I would play my guitar sitting on the floor, so she could reach. haha. And as I'm strumming, she would come over and strum the guitar too. haha :) Cutest thing ever.
Well, I just wanted to share that because for the past few days, I kept thinking about her and it kept making me sad to the point that I get teary-eyed. It's been hard coming home lately from a long day and not seeing her around. I'm also starting to feel that it was getting unhealthy to keep that feeling to myself, so I had to let it out. lol.
I was really hoping that she would be with me for a long time and that we would be the best of pals, but that obviously was not the case. The reason why she was taken away, I'd rather not share. But yeah...I miss her a lot.
Oh! and just a few days ago, I decided to name my guitar after her, "Ava". :)
Ava sleeping next to her favorite toy when she was sick.
I caught Ava making a hole in her dog food bag. She was addicted to that stuff!! It was her favorite. She didn't know when to stop eating.
Just a little while ago, I went scrapbook shopping. One of the things I bought was super glue.
So there I was at the cashier counter. I placed all my stuff down and the cashier girl started scanning my items. After scanning the super glue, she stared at me, so I stared back at her. We stared awkwardly at each other for a little bit when she finally said in a soft spoken and monotone voice, "I'm sorry, may I see your ID? I need to make sure that you are over 18 to purchase this."
Seriously? I need to be over 18 to purchase super glue?? On top of that, what do I look like...15?! I'm turning 20 soon for goodness sakes!!
LOL
xo, J
Sunday, March 20, 2011
"I can think of a few people who call me only when they have problems, and that hurts me because I feel they are not interested in me, but only in what I can do for them. I am sure you have experienced this and felt the same way. These people may call themselves my friends, but in reality they are not. Certainly, friends are for times of trouble, but those are not the only times they are for. Friends are for good times, too. We need to spend time not only talking to our friends about our problems, but also encouraging them, showing appreciation to them, and supporting them with words and actions." - Joyce Meyer, Hearing from God Each Morning
Tell a friend how much you appreciate them. I'm sure you'll make their day. :)
I love the atmosphere of the airport. There are all different races of people there, and you wonder what part of the world they are going to, where they came from, or what their purpose was to travel so far from home.
I watch people say their goodbyes. I've seen some cry. One time, I've seen a little girl about to travel on her own and her father was there saying his goodbye. It made me wonder though if that little girl has to travel all the time between her parents. I admit, it's a sad scene, but beautiful at the same time to see the connection between father and daughter.
I've watched people who arrive at the airport from where they came from. I watch people anxiously waiting for their loved one's arrival. I love watching friends and family reuniting.
Anyway, what I am getting at here is we all may look different and we all come from different places around the world, but yet, we're all the same in some ways. In this case, we all have families and friends at a place we like to call "home." And whether we're saying "hello" or "goodbye" to our family and friends at the airport, there sure is one thing behind every "hello" and every "goodbye," and it's called LOVE.
Love is in the air at airports around the world.
At this point, you might think I'm crazy, but that's because I am. lol. But that's how I see the airport in my eyes. There's more to it than the craziness and excitement of traveling. Just have to open your eyes and see it. :)
I had fun last night studying with friends until the library closed. But *sigh*...I just have to keep reminding myself that it's okay to be me. Someone very dear to my heart even told me so and that someone has no idea how much it means to me. :) I'm going to show them that I can be successful, even if I am this way. I've always accepted people for who they are, and I've never told them to change and be someone they're not. Why is it so hard for them to do the same for me and just accept the fact that this is who I am? It hurts, even if I don't show it, but I know that I'm better and stronger than they think I am.
Aside from that, for those who has accepted me for who I am, I want to thank you. It means a lot. :)
My favorite song of hers from the Unfold album. It was such a surprise that she played it that night. It was a special moment for me because it brought me back to 2008 when I first met her at the Glass House. It's amazing to know that it's been that long. She watched me grow up. I watched her succeed in what she does best. And over the course of the past 3 years, I met new friends through her music. Best thing that has ever happened to me. :)
Marie Digby playing at The Patio at Max's of Manila in Puente Hills Mall. 3/4/11
It's not that easy for me to be open to other people. I mean, I am "the girl who never talks." For a long time, actually, nearly everyday, I question myself when will I ever find someone or a group of people to become my closest friends and to help me break out of my shell. I don't have a close group of friends that I can just reach out to or just hangout with. So for a very long time, I felt lonely, and once in a while, I still do because I would miss having a friend around almost all the time, especially when there was no school and we would just have fun. But since middle school, my childhood friendships just faded, so I didn't really have close friends. I didn't really have a best friend or anyone to talk to. I was a loner, I guess you can say. This kind of stuff haunts me all the time and it's hard to live with these thoughts everyday. But luckily, I found certain people who can kind of help me to forget all of that once in a while.
This certain group of people, I met through the internet. Yup. We met at a fan site of our favorite musician. These people, even though I haven't met more than half of them in person or we hardly ever get to hangout together, have a special connection. We understand each other. We act as if we've known each other for so long, I guess. Anyway, I'm proud to say that after so long of feeling lonely and knowing how being lonely feels, it feels good to know that there are still good people out there who are accepting, caring, and loving. Of course, the distance from each other is a problem, but someway or somehow, someone is always there for you to make you smile or to make you laugh. In other words, at the end of the day, when I ask myself who was there for me to listen and comfort me or to just simply turn my day around with a simple gesture, it would be this certain group of people.
We may have never known each other for so long, but I find it really easy to be myself around them and I love how they accept me for the way that I am. With that said, I'm proud and not ashamed to say that they are my definition of "real friends." And I think within them also, I found some best friends. Best friends that I always wished I had. ;)
I never would have imagined that strangers I met from the internet would become the people who mean so much to me.
2/19/11
One Saturday morning, my friend and I had to go take a test in order to apply for the nursing program at our school. About a week before the test, we received an email telling us specifically telling us what we needed to bring. One of the things that we needed to bring was an ID that they gave to us when we registered online.
So the day of the test comes along and my friend and I carpool together to school to take our test at 9:00am. We were doing well. In fact, we arrived at school about half an hour early. We were sitting in the car when my friend was reading the email that we received that she printed out. Guess what? She forgot to print the second page out. PANIC. Without the second page, you couldn't take the test. So we're rushing and we don't know what to do because the computer labs at school were still closed and the library was still closed.
It's about 8:45am. My friend remembered that she has a cousin living not to far from our school, so we go there. I let her drive my car, by the way. So there we were, 15 minutes until the time that we needed to be in school, but we were on the freeway speeding to get to her cousin's house. The worst part is, we got lost. lol. With all the construction going on the freeway and certain parts of the city, we got lost. Her cousins couldn't even tell us how to get to the their house. Luckily, eventually my friend started to recognize the area and we found the house.
It's 9:00am. We're supposed to be at school by now, placed in our assigned classroom, and sitting at our desk ready to take the test. 9:05am, she got the page she needed printed out and we zoomed back our way to school. When we got school, she dropped me off at the front of the school while she went to go park the car, so that I could get in line and sign myself in, IF they were still letting people take the test.
Here's the best part. When I walked into the building, there were still people in line waiting to sign in. I had a huge sigh of relief and at the same time, anxiously waiting to see my friend's reaction when she comes into the building when she sees that we made it despite of our crazy adventure. She walks in through the doors and she spreads her arms out with a huge sigh of relief and we start laughing. She walks over to me laughing and out of breath; it was great. lol!
We were lucky to be able to have taken our test, I guess you could say. If we didn't, then that would have been a waste of time and money.
Anyway, few days later, she felt so bad for putting me in that situation that she bought me breakfast one day. Hehe, that was nice. :)
Have you ever been put into a crazy situation like that?
Never let anyone take away anything that makes you who you are.
-Note to self. :)
Saturday, February 12, 2011
"Why spend your life being angry and bitter toward someone who is probably enjoying his or her life and does not even care that you are upset? Do yourself a favor - forgive those who hurt you! ...Give yourself the gift of forgiveness."
I miss our sleepovers.
I miss playing pranks on our little brothers.
I miss our outrageous laughter.
I miss our inside jokes.
I miss being silly with you.
I miss talking to you.
I miss going to our favorite places together.
I miss sharing each other's dreams.
I miss partying with you.
I miss you coming over for the holidays.
I miss doing everything together.
I miss us wishing that we were sisters.
I can list so much more, but basically, I miss you, my friend.
Now, things aren't the same anymore.
Part of it feels like it's my fault.
Anyway, I'm glad you're happy. I'm glad that you found someone who loves you. I'm glad that you've found a passion in teaching and showing God's words and love.
I just hope that you haven't forgotten me.
My friend and I were on the very top floor, 5th floor to be exact, of the Jack Brown building at my school. Well, there was only one elevator working because the other one was not working. So here we are waiting forever for the elevator to come. When it finally did come, the doors gradually opened and it was nearly full. My friend and I barely squeezed in. It was funny though because when the door opened, people were looking at us smiling. Uhhh…wtf?
Anyway, so the elevator needed to get down to the second (my stop) and the first floor. But the stupid elevator stopped at every floor! So here we are a pack of people stuck in a stinky elevator. Furthermore, some professor tried to squeeze in and the elevator door pretty much squished him as he was walking through, and the girls started yelling! hahaha!
So yeah, during the next floors down, everybody is looking at each other and laughing and complaining saying, “Are you serious?!” as the elevator made it slowly down to each floor.
I don’t know…it was just awkward. The whole way down, I was staring at the floor trying not to keep eye contact with anyone or trying not to laugh. haha.
Yeah, my random/lame/boring adventure (whatever you want to call it) at school. Just wanted to share. :P
I have another funny elevator moment when I was at the Mall of Asia in the Philippines. haha. But maybe that’s a different blog. I don’t know. :P
It's funny being friends with someone who has the same name as you. Today, as we were walking out of class, someone who knew the both of us saw us and greeted, "Hey Jmie!...Oh! Hey other Jmie!" haha. I'm "other Jmie."
Anywho, getting the Anatomy & Physiology class that I needed made me a happy bee, even though I had to sacrifice to drop another class, and it boosted up my confidence just a little into getting closer to that Nursing Program because to be honest, I am feeling a bit discouraged. I keep hearing stories of people not getting into the program, even though their grades are phenomenol. It scares me and I'm super worried, not because my grades are bad, it's just that I don't feel like it's good enough. Eh? :S
I'm so worried that I'm thinking about other options, some of which are the worst things to think about like completely changing my major. Seriously, I feel like my future is such a blur right now. But I know I shouldn't be thinking like that. I must think positive. haha. Right? Which is why I'm going to need you to help keep me sane for as long as I'm still in school, alright? haha! :P
Well, sorry that this blog was so random, but I just wanted to get that out of my chest. It's one of those things that has been bothering me for quite sometime and there's still other things I have to do before I can apply. So on top of stress for my classes, I have stress for my requirements to apply for the Nursing Program. Gahhh!
Working for your future takes a lot of effort, both mentally and physically, which may build up a lot of stress. But in the end, it'll all be worth it, especially if you really work for it. I can't wait to get there. :)
Good morning! :)
I don't get very many text messages or phone calls, but this morning, I got this text message from a friend at 3:26am. It said:
"hi ading, i love you. you're probably asleep and will read this in the morning so good morning!"
(Ading means "younger sibling" if I'm not mistaken. ??)
Anyway, it's funny because I remembered that I actually woke up in the middle of the night to check my text message, but it was unclear because I was half asleep at that time. When I woke up, I recalled reading a text message, but somehow, I had this weird feeling that getting that text message was just a dream. (Yeah, #kidsthesedaysdreamabouttextmessaging - inside joke) I didn't want to look at my phone because I didn't want to feel disappointed if it wasn't there. But in the end, I decided to check my phone and BAM! It was real! lol
Anyway, what I'm trying to say is, I really needed that. :')
It's literally a "good" morning for me, and hopefully, for the rest of the day. :P
Now, I hope you have a good day and don't forget to tell someone you love them because you might just make their day. :)
xo, J
A new year means new challenges and new experiences. Now that 2010 is finally over, I feel like there's a great weight lifted from my shoulders. Everything that was a burden to me last year is long gone and over with and it's time to start fresh. And as always, I know it's not going to be easy, but I'm ready to take on whatever challenge may come. And I know if there's something I can't handle on my own, I've got friends I know I can trust and turn to for guidance. Last year may not have been the best, but I sure did learn a lot and I sure do feel like I've become a stronger person, and I'm proud of it myself. Of course, making it through the year would have not been tolerable without the help of some of my friends, which made it easier for me to end the year right, which was to carry a positive attitude until the turn of the year. :)
*sigh* Bring it on 2011!
