"I can think of a few people who call me only when they have problems, and that hurts me because I feel they are not interested in me, but only in what I can do for them.  I am sure you have experienced this and felt the same way.  These people may call themselves my friends, but in reality they are not.  Certainly, friends are for times of trouble, but those are not the only times they are for.  Friends are for good times, too.  We need to spend time not only talking to our friends about our problems, but also encouraging them, showing appreciation to them, and supporting them with words and actions." - Joyce Meyer, Hearing from God Each Morning


Tell a friend how much you appreciate them.  I'm sure you'll make their day.  :)

xo, J

The Airport

I love the atmosphere of the airport. There are all different races of people there, and you wonder what part of the world they are going to, where they came from, or what their purpose was to travel so far from home.

I watch people say their goodbyes.  I've seen some cry.  One time, I've seen a little girl about to travel on her own and her father was there saying his goodbye.  It made me wonder though if that little girl has to travel all the time between her parents.  I admit, it's a sad scene, but beautiful at the same time to see the connection between father and daughter.

I've watched people who arrive at the airport from where they came from.  I watch people anxiously waiting for their loved one's arrival.  I love watching friends and family reuniting.

Anyway, what I am getting at here is we all may look different and we all come from different places around the world, but yet, we're all the same in some ways.  In this case, we all have families and friends at a place we like to call "home."  And whether we're saying "hello" or "goodbye" to our family and friends at the airport, there sure is one thing behind every "hello" and every "goodbye," and it's called LOVE.

Love is in the air at airports around the world.

At this point, you might think I'm crazy, but that's because I am.  lol.  But that's how I see the airport in my eyes.  There's more to it than the craziness and excitement of traveling.  Just have to open your eyes and see it.  :)

xo, J

Just Rambling...

I had fun last night studying with friends until the library closed.  But *sigh*...I just have to keep reminding myself that it's okay to be me.  Someone very dear to my heart even told me so and that someone has no idea how much it means to me.  :) I'm going to show them that I can be successful, even if I am this way. I've always accepted people for who they are, and I've never told them to change and be someone they're not.  Why is it so hard for them to do the same for me and just accept the fact that this is who I am? It hurts, even if I don't show it, but I know that I'm better and stronger than they think I am.

Aside from that, for those who has accepted me for who I am, I want to thank you.  It means a lot.  :)

xo, J

Voice On The Radio

My favorite song of hers from the Unfold album. It was such a surprise that she played it that night. It was a special moment for me because it brought me back to 2008 when I first met her at the Glass House. It's amazing to know that it's been that long. She watched me grow up. I watched her succeed in what she does best. And over the course of the past 3 years, I met new friends through her music. Best thing that has ever happened to me. :)

Marie Digby playing at The Patio at Max's of Manila in Puente Hills Mall. 3/4/11

My Favorite "Strangers"

It's not that easy for me to be open to other people.  I mean, I am "the girl who never talks."  For a long time, actually, nearly everyday, I question myself when will I ever find someone or a group of people to become my closest friends and to help me break out of my shell.  I don't have a close group of friends that I can just reach out to or just hangout with.  So for a very long time, I felt lonely, and once in a while, I still do because I would miss having a friend around almost all the time, especially when there was no school and we would just have fun.  But since middle school, my childhood friendships just faded, so I didn't really have close friends.  I didn't really have a best friend or anyone to talk to.  I was a loner, I guess you can say.  This kind of stuff haunts me all the time and it's hard to live with these thoughts everyday.  But luckily, I found certain people who can kind of help me to forget all of that once in a while.

This certain group of people, I met through the internet.  Yup.  We met at a fan site of our favorite musician.  These people, even though I haven't met more than half of them in person or we hardly ever get to hangout together, have a special connection.  We understand each other.  We act as if we've known each other for so long, I guess.  Anyway, I'm proud to say that after so long of feeling lonely and knowing how being lonely feels, it feels good to know that there are still good people out there who are accepting, caring, and loving.  Of course, the distance from each other is a problem, but someway or somehow, someone is always there for you to make you smile or to make you laugh.  In other words, at the end of the day, when I ask myself who was there for me to listen and comfort me or to just simply turn my day around with a simple gesture, it would be this certain group of people.

We may have never known each other for so long, but I find it really easy to be myself around them and I love how they accept me for the way that I am.  With that said, I'm proud and not ashamed to say that they are my definition of "real friends."  And I think within them also, I found some best friends.  Best friends that I always wished I had. ;)

I never would have imagined that strangers I met from the internet would become the people who mean so much to me.

I love them.  Enough said.

xo, J    

Crazy Saturday Morning

2/19/11
One Saturday morning, my friend and I had to go take a test in order to apply for the nursing program at our school.  About a week before the test, we received an email telling us specifically telling us what we needed to bring.  One of the things that we needed to bring was an ID that they gave to us when we registered online.

So the day of the test comes along and my friend and I carpool together to school to take our test at 9:00am.  We were doing well.  In fact, we arrived at school about half an hour early.  We were sitting in the car when my friend was reading the email that we received that she printed out.  Guess what?  She forgot to print the second page out.  PANIC.  Without the second page, you couldn't take the test.  So we're rushing and we don't know what to do because the computer labs at school were still closed and the library was still closed.

It's about 8:45am.  My friend remembered that she has a cousin living not to far from our school, so we go there.  I let her drive my car, by the way.  So there we were, 15 minutes until the time that we needed to be in school, but we were on the freeway speeding to get to her cousin's house.  The worst part is, we got lost.  lol.  With all the construction going on the freeway and certain parts of the city, we got lost.  Her cousins couldn't even tell us how to get to the their house.  Luckily, eventually my friend started to recognize the area and we found the house.

It's 9:00am.  We're supposed to be at school by now, placed in our assigned classroom, and sitting at our desk ready to take the test.  9:05am, she got the page she needed printed out and we zoomed back our way to school.  When we got school, she dropped me off at the front of the school while she went to go park the car, so that I could get in line and sign myself in, IF they were still letting people take the test.

Here's the best part.  When I walked into the building, there were still people in line waiting to sign in.  I had a huge sigh of relief and at the same time, anxiously waiting to see my friend's reaction when she comes into the building when she sees that we made it despite of our crazy adventure.  She walks in through the doors and she spreads her arms out with a huge sigh of relief and we start laughing.  She walks over to me laughing and out of breath; it was great.  lol!

We were lucky to be able to have taken our test, I guess you could say.  If we didn't, then that would have been a waste of time and money.

Anyway, few days later, she felt so bad for putting me in that situation that she bought me breakfast one day.  Hehe, that was nice.  :)

Have you ever been put into a crazy situation like that?